February 4, 2012

Lack of Hair

I buzzed my head. It's been a week now.

So, why? A lot of people have been asking and yes, of course there's a form answer that I give, but I suppose digging deeper is what blog posts are supposed to be for right? Speaking of that, this blog has descended into into just another "read about my silly life" exercise. *shakes head* Guess that's a topic for another day.

Also, why didn't I tell hardly anyone that I was going to do it? The first one is easy, I wanted a change. Buzzing my head was attractive in many ways and not permanent. I can wear all the hats I want now! All the time! No hat hair! Wind? No problem! No more annoying hair to get in my face and stuck to my lips. So yes okay, maybe all of these changes (see previous blog posts...) are starting to make it look a little like I'm having a late-twenties life crisis, but so far, a pretty benign one wouldn't you say? I feel restless and vaguely dissatisfied, though I can't pinpoint if there's anything I could change or do that would fix it. I guess part of the problem is that I had a very clear, distinct goal in life for a last few years and now I don't. All of these changes are short-term goals that I've actually more or less already achieved (yay for achievements). Obviously I have no idea what long-term goal I want to pursue so now I'm just floundering around jumping from one thing to the next. This is how most people do life yes?

Okay back to the main topic at hand, so I only told less people than I can count on one hand. Part of it was that I didn't want to deal with people trying to talk me out of it. Another part of it was that I really wanted to see the look on people's faces! Unfortunately that didn't pan out as well as I'd hoped. I saw quite a few people the day after the buzz, but so far, barely anyone from my core friend group. You'd think I'd organize something so I could see everyone but frankly I'm a little tired of organizing things at the moment. It's one thing to be able to count on people to be excited about the things you organize and another to hope that they'll be excited and then have the wind in your plans' proverbial sails sucked out by their apathy. Okay fine, not everyone is into everything that I'm into, but fuck, isn't that what friends are supposed to be for? Be interested in the same things and do stuff with you? So that's certainly a major let-down. I guess I could have kept it to myself and off the interwebs until I saw them, but I felt like I was starting to cross the fine line of it becoming some sort of weird secret.

How do I like it so far? Everything is crunchy. And the back of my neck feels cold. But so far I like it a lot more than I thought I would. I think I will definitely keep this super short length for a while and buy more hats. Certainly a cute fedora is in my future :)